My mum forced me to let my rabbit go. She(My rabbit) was with me ever since I was Primary 4. And I really really hate to see her go. She has been living indoors all her life. If I were to let her go,that will mean that she'll have to live in the wild and survive on her own. No food,no water,no protection,no shelter. I really doubt that she's going to be able to survive in such harsh conditions by herself. What if there are snacks,eagles and carnivorous animals lerking around...She'll definately be eaten. I can't imagine the sight of her being eaten or injured. I really really love her. She has been with me all these years and I really can't let it go...:( I've got no choice. My mum's a stupid idiot who does stupid things. I hate her to the core! What fucking vow is this. Nabei CB, what next life? What bad karma? FUCK THAT!

Sighs, I've asked her to let my rabbit go herself. I can't see my rabbit leaving me like this. I'll break down and cry for days. I'm in a devastated mood right now. Forgive me for the language. I... I really can't take it... :( I'm always thinking about ending my fucking life whenever I'm sad. And she's the fucking reason why I have such thoughts. No one will ever understand my life. My mum's a devil. She's out to make my life miserable and unhappy. I fucking hate her. I fucking hate her to the core!

When I grow up, I will keep whatever pet I want. I will. Then,my mum will have no say about what fucking animals I keep. I can't wait till I'm 21. I can't wait to leave this horrible place. It's hell.

I've been thinking about my rabbit. To love her is to let her go. It's really very hard to accept this fact. It's painful. But I have to accept it and get on with life,right? I guess I'll have to prepare for the worst and face reality. I can never have whatever I want in life. I'll come to accept this... But god,if you really do exist,please change my luck and my life for the better.